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[korafox]

So I am wondering if I have some sort of social anxiety issues. I realized that I have little mini panic-attacks when I have to go to the library staff for something, or even if I just think about having a conversation like that...I think it's only with people who I don't identify as my "peers", I guess. I've never been very good at talking to people on a casual level really. Constantly having to think about "what should I say", "how should I react", "what is the polite thing to do here"...it is far too stressful. I worry that I will offend someone by being all stuttering, or not giving the right conversational feedback...
*sigh* I know I should not feel so concerned about all this. But some days I just feel like saying, "leave me be!" and working in a little nook by myself. I am on edge....I should take some time to myself, relax and find my peace. I almost think that starting the school year next monday will come as a sort of break...I won't have to worry about that daily dreaded "how are you?" question, and I can spend time with my friends (who I have none of these issues with).

Well, the freshmen will be here tomorrow. Perhaps I'll see them moving in while we're having our end-of-summer TS luncheon. : )
(here's hoping for some non-psychotic roleplayers to bring into the fold!)

Good night and sweetest dreams~